Last night I filled in my new 2011-2012 Moleskine planner (which you can read about here) with family birthdays and the American holidays (which I like to write in since Moleskine doesn't print the name of the holiday on the day spaces). Normally when I "set up" a new planner, I write in upcoming events, appointments, and local contacts.
Then I realized, I don't have any.
Moving to a new country is unnerving in a lot of ways. Part of that for me is the "empty planner" syndrome.
I have no plans past March 23rd. I don't know where I'll be living (beyond a general idea). I don't have an address or a phone number. I don't know anyone there so I have no contacts.
I have nothing to write in my planner.
A similar feeling is that of "no keys." That happens when I leave someplace and am in transit to someplace else. I don't own a car at that moment so I have no car keys. I left my old house behind and am not at my new house yet so I don't have house keys. You get the idea. Having no keys makes me feel like I'm caught in the middle of two realities, past and future.
I'm feeling like that right now with my empty planner.
My plans for the next couple of weeks consist mostly of preparing for this move. But then once that is done, I have no set plans. Just pages and pages of empty day spaces.
For a planning person like me, it's very unnerving.